(No, Corey didn't say this...but both of his brothers managed to today. I realize they didn't mean anything by it, but it's an awkward question for many reasons. One, because my mother-in-law, who I love dearly, was sitting right there. Two, because I'm just not ready to leave her very long with anyone but Corey and I don't like feeling like I need to explain that to people - it has nothing to do with anyone but me)
We are at my in-laws house visiting for the weekend. After some BBQ and Mike's Hard Lemonade, the guys were inspired to go to the bar. This was the second time today I was asked the question that bothers me so much.
I didn't want to go out to the bar because:
- I don't want to smell like smoke.
- I don't want to have to take a shower as soon as I get home because I smell like smoke.
- I don't want Sophie to be breathing that in or to smell like it because I held her. That's just gross and unhealthy for her.
- Drinking isn't all that appealing to me anymore.
- If I drink more than one or two, then I'm not comfortable with it passing through my breast milk to her.
- I love breastfeeding, so I have no desire to do anything that causes me to have to feed her from a bottle if I don't have to.
- If I drink, then it's not safe for her to sleep in the bed curled up with me, and I love that more than I love a 30 minute buzz. I love it more than anything. Especially now that she likes to lay down with me and play with my face.
- There is plenty of time for things like this later. I became a mom - I didn't keel over and die. And I realize the day will come that I want to get away for a little bit - but I'm not in a rush for it.
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